I’ve had a couple people tell me about how this blog has helped me push through some of the rougher patches of the last couple months. I’ve had a couple of ‘found’ moments here that I have shared with my (small) readership. This is certainly not one of those posts.
I am LOST. And no, not in the sense that I am consumed by that television show.
No, instead I am lost in what I am doing as a student teacher. I am looking at some not so high marks as I go through some of the evaluations of my students. I am looking over my first observations. I am looking over the clocked hours that I have put into this position/internship/whatever.
I get some great messages from a couple of my friends. Their cheer helps, but when my mood gets low enough, I only want to hear a few of their voices for a couple seconds.
Teaching is harder than I could have ever imagined. Field observations never prepared me for this level of commitment, mental drain or responsibility to an age group that I am no longer a part of (and that I can impact for a very long time to come, especially as I hand out grades). And I am quickly realizing that these are hardships that I cannot write my way out of. I’ve gotten the pat on the back from a couple colleagues, but that, like those quick phone calls to friends, is just not doing enough.
My blog posts have been slim — nothing cheersome or reflective. And what of those New Year’s resolutions?
So, here is the first post without an aim. Testify! I have a lot of sorting to do.
But first, application essays!