I am so far ahead in grading for my classes. I pretty much have the books closed on both of my classes. So, I took in a lot of advice from other teachers today after school about the next unit I am planning.
I look now at the lab schedule and feel an epic fail coming on… the 4-5 week research project on current events that I am supposed to do… there is no consistent lab time across any week. I feel a massive panic attack coming on.
On the night before midterm evals… I aimed for tomorrow to be stress-free. Now, I will not sleep AGAIN because of something I did not think of, was too burned out to remember and in general will lead to MORE STRESS because I cannot do this the way I expect myself to. (If you aren’t getting a sense yet that I am tremendously hard on myself when it comes to teaching, then wake up.) I thought getting ahead and staying there was the remedy for these shaking anxiety sprees. I need to run and the night is too far in to go tot he gym late and Spring teased way too early this year.
End entry: chronicles of student teaching.